Some days we might feel as if all hope is gone. We may feel empty and alone. Where do we turn on those hopeless days?
My soul, wait in silence for God only, For my hope is from Him. Psalm 62:5
That is how I feel some days.
I stare at the words I have written.
Hopeless. Having less hope than I did before.
But … why? Why do these feelings seem so strong right now?
I think it is because of the silence.
It's early morning.
I seem to wake earlier than I used to wake. Before I want to wake.
I want to sleep more - but I lie with my eyes closed and my mind awake, so I do the obvious thing and open my eyes to the silence.
Lately I watch old movies, listen to audio books, have the windows open. Anything to stem the silence.
When did I grow to hate the silence?
I used to long for it.
Now, the silence seems empty. Void.
I think of the old adage that "Nature abhors a vacuum."
Maybe that is why the silence is so large - so looming - so hurtful.
I've not yet filled that void.
I think of the many things I could use to fill that hollowness - of the things I have already tried.
Then, I remember...
"The Lord is my portion," says my soul, "Therefore I have hope in Him." The Lord is good to those who wait for Him, To the person who seeks Him. It is good that he waits silently." (Lamentations 3:24-26a)
Since the silence seems forced upon me, I will seize it as an opportunity and not a curse.
I will wait silently.
Father God, I pray we might sense your presence during the times of silence, the times of darkness, the times when we simply don't know what comes next. Help us to welcome the silences as a privileged time to wait upon You. Amen and amen.
Originally published April 2012 TodaysEncouragagingWordOnline.com (site loads slowly!)